100 Breaths for 100 Days, that’s the commitment.
Updating you on what’s happened since last Monday.
General Observations from the Week: Grabbing and Grasping
- I seem to need about the first 15 breaths to relax my body while maintaining an alert spine. I’ll show you how I do this below.
- Mostly I just can’t tell the difference. between controlling each breath and merely counting.
- I worry that I won’t have anything to write to you about- that I won’t remember the sensations and thoughts I experience. Like a hawk circling above a tasty meal, I hover looking to dive, snatch, and keep one. I never noticed this vigilance before.
- When I grab an observation, it morphs into an image and before I know it I’ve followed a train of thought, one that tickles me (hello ego), and I see that I’ve left the breath. Again.
- Thought I am not giving myself a hard time about getting distracted – this is already different than how it would have been a few years ago – there’s a sense of p-p-ull-ling myself back to the breath that’s definitely tense.
- Day 13 I meditate, but I take no notes.
What it was like today:
Cross-legged, I close my eyes. I find my sitz bones (the ones under your butt) on the floor. Then I tune into the right side of my body. I’m imagining it softening and widening beginning at my legs and moving up to my face. Then I repeat on the other side.
At first, this leads to pleasant sensations until my spine starts to droop. Next, I imagine the meeting place between the two sides of my body filled with flowing water. Now my spine is awake enough without too much muscular effort.
My breath has been coming and going more slowly and at 40 I really notice it. For the first time, I know that I’m watching at the same time that I’m watching. Is this the “witness?” The part of me that’s watching me breathe feels big and loving; that heart cracking sweetness of watching my babies sleep.
Oops, I’m gone again, lost in memory. My babies. I bring my attention back to my body. Where was I?
How’s it going for you? What have you noticed?
I think it’s so much better when other people tackle a disciplined practice along with me. There’s something even more than support, encouragement, and empathy that happens between us, even online. I’m perfectly willing to go solo but it would be fantastic if you were doing it too. We can share stories – or not. You can just read, lurk about and observe – your call.
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Related articles & photo credit:
- photo detail from Breathing by Anne Lindberg at the Daum Museum of Contemporary Art
- Meditation Monday: The Plan
- Meditation Monday: Day #1
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