100 Breaths for 100 Days, that’s the commitment.
After a whole week ( a whole week!) of sitting Mindfulness Meditation I’m playing with how I’ll tell you about it. Here goes.
General Observations from the Week:
- Chucked the cushion, it distracted me.
- Had to decide where I’d put my hands . Right now I’m opting for in my lap with fingertips almost touching.
- I avoided sitting on Day 5- but finally did it.
- Avoided it again on Day 6 – this time didn’t do it.
- Knowing I was going to tell you about not practicing actually helped me let myself off the hook, “it’s all part of the experiment,” and that led me to wondering if it I could try meditating right after yoga.
- My mind wants to use mental images to help me bring my concentration to breathing. One day it’s seeing a train conductor playing the harmonica to calm a scared child on the train, and another day it’s finding the very center of my skull. When I sensed the middle of my skull, I felt my spine elongate. My eyes (even though they were closed) shifted in their sockets. Oddly, this made it easier to breathe.
What it was like today:Getting started felt like easing instead of reminding. I attribute this to being super relaxed during Shivasana (Corpse Pose) at the end of yoga. I just sat up slowly and got to it. (Makes sense, Hatha Yoga was designed to get the body ready for meditation- and it makes sense too that I’d have to experience it to get it.)
At about 60 breaths there was a rush of heat (no, not a hot flash) and I welcome it. Then I’m feeling impatient. By 80 breaths I want to stay forever. And at 90 I feel a subtle circling deep in my ribcage. It kind of snakes up to my shoulders and neck as I watch it. Then I have a powerful urge to turn my head all the way to the left, and a voice inside asks, “Are you supposed to move during sitting meditation?”
Then I think, “I don’t know the answer to that, I haven’t a clue what I’m doing. And since I don’t, it doesn’t matter what I choose right now.” It occurs to me that I can file away this urge for further investigation at a later time. I don’t have to act on it but I can if I want. Now, it seems right to just watch and stay still. Of course, I’ve lost count several times, and am only vaguely aware that I’m breathing at all. 99…100.
How’s it going for you?
Have you noticed that it’s so much better when other people tackle a disciplined practice along with you? There’s something even more than support, encouragement, and empathy that happens between us, even online. I’m perfectly willing to go solo on this, but it would be fantastic if you were doing it too. We can share stories – or not. You can just read, lurk about and observe – your call.
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Related articles & photo credit:
- photo detail from Breathing by Anne Lindberg at the Daum Museum of Contemporary Art
- Meditation Monday: The Plan
- Meditation Monday: Day #1
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